Jiang Feng prose —– Meet in the spring

Meet in the wind {} serialized in the depths of winter the north wind had people wandering roll back every alley, he does not talk to me; I could not control myself to some。I said:“The boss do you rent books?”He shook his head, it looks like he has no interest in book rentals。I do not quite convinced,“This book is the boss you how to sell?”He finally spoke, thought, he could get a nice standard Southern accent。“Girl, books are cheap, you pick it。”    Night has been deep, yellowish under the lights, and I was the only car he was guarding a book, and even each other's heartbeat can be heard。I do not know why there is always distraught, my sensory nerve to tell me: in front of the man must be a man has an unusual experience。I know he does not want to rent a book to me, he seems to just want to find from me for a long time what he seems to have lost something。I thought to myself: what he's looking for something that will do?Is lower or noble?I waited a long time in the past I may be the answer blank。    He still was so pro and looked at me, just like his first look so kind。I set my unique flexible woman he just rented his two books, I just paid him rent that moment, he will be a "two-year-old with the right people, thirty do the right thing," the Red Book affinity to show in my line of sight。what!The man ah!He and I lived like a confidant for many years, so how can he know what a woman's inner world?I took endless dark question mark firmly made up his mind: no matter what sort of person you are, I must carefully and you get along; I must read you this elusive“Classical。”I want to completely understand what you are a man, how can you escape stole my heart。I looked at his hands the title, which he seems to have become bosom friend and I tonight。I took a closer look at the book, the contents of the book really like his eyes so appealing to me, I did not hesitate to buy it。    Biting winds roared again, the old tree after bookstall also cold light with its dry branches guess our own thoughts。Some I could not withstand the temptation of the night, I prepared and he said goodbye, thought this man of few words, let me have some attachment to this man, actually suddenly emerge something that I will never have unforgettable words:“Girl, you like a person……”    His outburst, my body like an electric shock again, it was hot and it feels like hemp are lovers first kiss, is so wonderful。What a feeling ah!It was my first time in twenty-one of the most beautiful feelings。I always keep the brain awake, thinking all this time he seems to have all been occupied; I thought it short-circuit capacity。Girl inherent confusion, shyness, so I left him the moment。I hurried and he waved, he still stood erect and looked at me cold away in the back。    Along the way, although the cold winds kept slapping my body, that can be sweltering current but still in my body frantically without stopping。Heart is warm, his mind full of the man's smile and his eyes look and affinity。I forget the existence of Liu two, but I still forget and Liu's residence No。I trot all the way back to the East cranky that I rented cottage。When I opened the door and saw the room and Liu already know where to go, I quickly locked the door on; my heart on her bed, holding a book looking at the ceiling, listening to the roar of the wind out of the window, my mind was thinking that man heartbeatin。A long time, a long time tossing and turning。    That night, I seem to grow a lot of years old; that night, the first time he ever let me sleep。That night I gave him the phone, and he gave me a business card of his bookstore, there is a nice name on business cards, Jiang Feng。Jiang Feng, there is more than one name of art ah!I have been waiting for his phone, over the past few days, no phone maple movement。I distracted to read a few books; I was busy at work during the day, at night I empty and alone guarding the deserted hut。Feng has been fifty years old, and this is a pity for me, my dreams seem never perfect, twenty-one years; I was actually looking forward to the results of a handsome young elders can not。Fate ah!How would open such a joke?He still like a handsome guy, he always gave me the impression of masculine and calm。He let my heart, made me like night and day。He is at home right?If there is what it looks like?If not, what would be a scenario it?    A few days since I tried to control his own cranky, and then, from time to time brought back my heart always inexplicable fantasy。Leave the day finally arrived, the small city I have no acquaintance, a person stay in the rental house means nothing。So I thought of maple……    Good days, and Liu never give me a call, I was immersed in a maple acquaintance and memory, so I started my diary again, the happiest girl I want to write down palpitations。This winter I never feel cold, have all happy to get along, happy and sweet memories。I use a pen to write down the first time I met this man and maple……    Feng said: I like a man, what he meant?I like who in the end?With these question marks I wanted to find out, I decided to go looking for him。Since I first arrived in this city, so I found a large circle in several small cities, only to find maple bookstore。    Maple and I met that day at noon, like a gloomy day like going to snow, winter wind still trumpet the city crazy show, and he was so pro and to meet with my visit。Feng walked into a bookstore, imprinted in my eyes first impression: the bookstore was not much, but also find no less than a few books I can fill the emptiness of mind。But I had to look that, even in this small bookstore brings together a large number of Chinese and foreign classics, so many out of print works systematically all like maple temperament attracted me。I was wearing not much, Feng very cautious observed me move some fear the cold, he opened the electric heater。Not expected, I actually be able to a few years old and I have this big man miraculously have many common topics。I sat face to face and maple electric warm edge, while enjoying the warmth of electric warming brings, while comfortably with AC。Feng seems to already know that I took away a lot of question marks, just as I would like to question him, he was calling my name simply to say to me:“Ningning, let me tell you!You're like my early twenty years of his ex-wife——Quiet。”Her outburst, I actually did not feel the slightest surprise。But only significant psychological reaction was: my heart beat faster, and the moment I took all the question marks are scotched。what!So this is ah!No wonder my heart is always Keeping Thinking about him。Is my past life he had really had a life to love that woman?Maple and my age difference of a few years, and we were actually to talk about anything, both sides are sincere; like a pair of long every lover, recklessly laughing。We set the parting this life be a good friend of the agreement!    I and Maple Story is from this beginning that day, we talked about their own life。That is, since then, I know that many of his stories。    It turned out that maple is a native of southwest person。His youth army, had been a member of the paper work, the doctor did, with a soldier, fought, is a survivor from the Vietnam war people down。His ex-wife——Static sacrifice in self-defense war。In order to calm his love life in the middle of a 16-year-old white。He said I was like his ex-wife quiet, he has been looking for quiet leaving only goes black and white photographs, he wanted to find it let me see, soon he will really quiet pictures that I saw。My goodness!The world has really grown woman like me; no wonder that when he first met me so seriously with me……    I've never felt the winter is so long, and then I let this winter seems to be interested in First love me and maple tightly tied together。Feng not we northerners, but also to adapt to these people palpitations winter than pure northerners。This experienced the Vietnam war survivors。His attitude toward life: actually“Alive is the greatest happiness”。On his outlook beginning, I really do not understand; but as ordinary communicate with him, I gradually come to understand his words hidden in far-reaching implications。At this point I have to admit: I have 21 years to find a soul mate turned out to be more than half of white maple, maple and I finally became Wangnianzhijiao。Although he was old, but temperament, his speech made me forget my age and differences。He was like a magnet tightly to my heart suck, and since then I will from time to time, can not help but want to go under the tree Laohuai that his stall to see him。He was on time, no matter how bad climate, he will bookstall was there; he always cheerfully facing each customer。    2010 winter, it makes me so silently and maple forged a kind of indistinct Love。We both seem to the point where neither can do without, each other's heart there is always a sense of care。As long as what classes, I always could not help but want to see maple, we then selflessly guarded one that makes everyone feel cold winter。After I know maple began his lengthy creation, he wrote an expression of love poems "poly evening of Love" is for me the poem maple in the cold wind made it for me, really incredible。I do not know how many times I watched, should have failed to openly oppose, I acquiesced。I really do not know what I'll accept that with emotion maple, happy that I'm doing all the winter than any winter。Maple care for me sometimes, like their elders, sometimes like my colleagues, like brother。But let me feel more than the former, but as a lover of many years。What are we in the end?How I could not find it appropriate answer。I looked at the bright stars in the story of my grandmother pour the maple, bright and clean looking at the moon maple told me about the life of faith。We meet in the depths of winter, our common reaction against the corruption of the world, we almost love that one in the long winter nights。But who I would never believe that we've never overtook between men and women spring tide rolling piece of border。Feng, let me in this lonely, empty city became my girlhood most trusted man first……    Maple is not as boring as many men, he really loves me, but he came to tempt me from those big words do not。She and I know, has always been a very friendly, we have more exchanges。He said to me: I was looking for his shadow that quiet most of their lives。He never made me disgusted things, and maple along I felt that both a father, but also love the kind of sense of security。    I really changed, and became as maple and love of learning and kind to others, and get along with him, I no longer feel I live in a family of wealth。I did it once spiritual emptiness。Perhaps influenced by maple, I adhere to the diary written down。Maple is a responsible man, his life is not rich, but he never deep, he put his life energy seems to be dedicated to young people like me。His bookstall often packed with young people to listen to his speech, while he was the breadwinner, but while in selfless play the role of social mentor。Many parents, teachers not to pass this knowledge on behalf of our young people can get something for nothing from the maple there。Maple is really a perfect man, the face of Feng such a good man, a man has been home; I said it the end of a proceed or retreat?Twenty-one years and today I finally realized that I just live in a small circle of selfishness。Feng did not give help from me on what money and material, he taught me more is the innovation life skills and language arts。Really, I played my heart fell in love with this man……    I thought he loved me, it will not be the kind of lover's distance love。He thought he could put that disclosure love deep in his heart; he said to me:“I really love you”But this love is the only kind of care for elders to younger people; for love sex only as static, like the beautiful love becomes a review of old love……    He, it seems to make me sad。I am also a woman, like millions of women, same as with the demand for sex, women also have a total of selfishness。However, Feng always acting so cool, calm and let me have some crazy。I was almost to the extent of self prisoners, while turning a blind eye maple。He still treat me like a quiet shadow, he wanted my shadow forever in his heart will never destroy。what!This is what kind of men do?Could it be that war makes him so it can resist everything?People ah!Why always live in endless contradictions?Why could not get the hopes of finding?Feng face, I want to love not, want to hate; I finally alone again, dazed friends……    Winter passed, and Han Ling Feng of Love seems to come to an end。This life I can not forgive myself is: that's six months along and maple he has repeatedly asked my address, but I do not know why he never told。I already knew he loved me more than his father's love for his daughter; I want is another kind of love。What I'm not sure of the other men, but he is not the kind of vulgar person。It is said to have who can do without, but I did not tell him the address, then the address Maple refuses to talk about what happened。    Do not know when Feng actually know my detailed address, I thought that he will come, I have at home dreaming of knocking on my door maple; however he never did not appear surprised。Later, I am a little embarrassed to go to his house, and I hate why I like this。After all, I love the face of Feng guilty, just as I was going to tell him the address; I received a maple wrote me a similar diplomatic relations up to nine letters。He bred asked me in the letter“Why Since it is a friend, with what even a home address are not informed of it?”This time, I just want to explain to him what is useless, maple is a prudent man to do things。I know: Since he wrote me this letter, that he had thought the。His full-length work, "Jiang Feng Collection" in Yunnan began writing, because my presence; overnight he would write thirty years of corpus adapted into "Jiang Feng prose, meet in the spring," twenty tens of thousands word accounted for most of what I wrote。My God!His love for me is really more than a lover ah!As a woman, especially now that all the benefit as the center of the times, my life is enough……    Perhaps to no longer play around Maple existing quiet life, I soon left him and some that make me want to stay in the city, I do not know maple will not want me; but I can only put him deeply, deeply hidden in the heart of the sea of love……

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